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Friday, 21 February 2014

Fiver Friday February

Hey My Lovelies,

How y'all doing!? So it is already week two of Fiver Friday February and time for your second instalment! I also wanted to say thank you to everyone who checked in to read my two latest posts last friday (Fiver Friday Week One, and Living With Vitiligo) the response towards Living With Vitiligo was amazing, I received hundreds of views just on that post, thank you so much! Thank you for the lovely comments too! :)

1. Miss Sporty Studio Lash Liquid Liner - £1.79
To be honest this is a typical liquid eyeliner, no different to most! But the price! It's inexpensive, whilst it stays put all day, plus it's smudge proof! Which I typically always have problems with!

2. Rimmel Stay Matte - £3.99

I personally use this product alone, but it can be used together to keep your foundation or concealer in place, it personally keeps me matte all day regardless of the bottom layer, it also reduces redness (which I suffer from slightly) which is a plus! It's really cheap and also lasts ages! You may need to re-apply in the day if you have an extra oily t-zone.

3. L'oreal Skin Perfection 3 in 1 Micellar Solution - £3.30
I recently picked this up after hearing a few you tubers rave about it, and since it was on offer I decided to splurge, even if it was only £3.00! It cleanses your face, removes your makeup and impurities,  it tones your skin, and draws out oil! Its amazing! My skin looks five times clearer than before, and has ended up saving me a lot of money, as you don't need to put a cleanser, toner, oil remover and make up remover! Amazing product!

4. Models Own Nail Corrector Pen - £5.00
This is a life saver! It works a dream! I hate it when I make a small mistake, or when I slightly go over, I have to take it all off and start again, but with this I save so much time and anger! Thank you models own!

5. PONDS Hydronourishing Moisturiser
Last week I suddenly found these really dry patches on my skin, and had a total freak out. I literally ran to my nearest boots, and picked up the first moisturiser I found. (Properly not a good idea.. but it worked this time) Thankfully this moisturiser is really good, it has cleared up my dry skin within two days and leaves my skin soft, and saves it from the cold winter air. My skins really smooth, and I really recommend it! (It's also currently on offer in boots!)

So I hope you enjoyed the second instalment! Please comment if you found it useful! Please also follow my blog,  it means a lot to me! Anyway I hope your enjoying your week of!

Love Daisy

Saturday, 8 February 2014

Living with vitilgo

Hi guys,
I know this isn't a beauty post but I really wanted to do this as I wanted you guys to know what its like for me, and I'm about to face a difficult time with my vitiligo so this may help me.

Knowing that this post might just help one person, who might not nessicarily have vitiligo, but may have acne, or diformities then it would be worth it. Somedays I wake up and feel confident with my vitiligo, where as some days I want to curl up in a ball underneath my bed covers and scream 'why me?" Living with a skin condition, or anything strange or perculier is horrible, nobody understands but they pretend they do. I hate having people say "I understand" because you really don't understand how it feels, or "you can talk to me about it" if I want to talk about it then I will, but most of the time I want to forget, and pretend I'm normal.

Next year in May I'm going to France for a week with my school, its all water based activities which means wearing a bikini in front of people who might not have seen my vitiligo before, it means handling over 200 different reactions all at once, which is in incredibly overwhelming, and a incredibly scary thought, which continues to haunt me.  Back in April last year I began to go swimming once/twice a week with my friends, then the boys started going then I stopped. Fear of judgement. Fear of opinion. Fear of comments. Fear of bullys. Vitiligo has controlled me for my whole life; and most likely will continue to control me for the remain of my life. But I have to, so I hope doing this post will give me some confidence in showing who I really am.

I hate doing PE, even though I love sport. I hate swimming, even though I love swimming. I hate netball even though I love netball. I hate holidays even though I love holidays. I hate summer even though I love summer. All of them means revealing slightly more of me. Apart of me I long to hide, lock in a cage, peel off and kick. I scratch it somedays for so long my skin goes red and raw, I do it hoping it will somehow come off, I'm not stupid to know that it won't work. I don't even know why I do it, it dosn't even help. In fact it makes me so much angrier, but I continue to do it.

I have people call me names, and I have to deal with it. Nobody should have to hear people call you names, I've been called so many names, and I have learnt how to deal with it whether its to ignore it or protest against it. I don't like confrontation so I would never approach someone, if someone was starring at me - which they often are - then I will look away, blink back tears and carry on. But after I always regret never saying anything. You don't stare at someone who hasn't got a leg, or are in a wheelchair, so why stare at me? Am I really so awful to look at. I want to tell people how I feel, I shouldn't have to put up with mean people, I'm thirteen for godsake and I've come to terms with the fact that I'll never be popular, and that people in this world are mean, and so horrifically horrible. I'm not ordinary or anything wildly different, I may share the same skin has a giraffe or a cow. But that makes me; and I've come to terms with the fact that it is the real me. Behind the layers of makeup, and clothes that covers it all, is somebody broken, and exhausted. But I'm strong. I can have someone stare at me in disgust, point at me, laugh at me, whisper and torment me, tell me I wear to much makeup and I can walk away and smile. It's made me weak, but in a weird way its made me strong. I'll never understand why someone can feel the need to call me names, and point at me, and make me feel ten times worse about myself than I already did.

I'm sitting her crying, because I remember all the things I've been called, everything I have gone through. I remember being about eight and wearing a beautiful green leotard for my dancing class, I had been so excited for my dad to buy me that damn thing, I put it on feeling so elegant, and yet getting home I cried and cried because I said it didn't look right, I thought it would make me beautiful, but it enhanced what I could already see. I refused to but it on again, and even being eight I was scared to show the world who I was. I remember the teachers telling me off for wearing makeup to school, when I didn't wear any, telling them I didn't wear any, but they didn't believe me. I remember being on year eight camp, and not wearing shorts and tank tops even though all my friends did, and it was so hot and yet I wore long sleeves, and jeans. Then when we went swimming, I pretended to be on my period so I wouldn't have to swim in front of everyone. Ashamed. I've never felt accepted, or felt belonged. I was three when I was first started to have white patches appear, and being a model, companies wanted to cover it up, and pretend it wasn't there. My parents let them for a while, before they couldn't handle it. Who would? Watching your child be covered in makeup hiding their flaws, covering something so unique and different, because it wasn't defined as perfect or beautiful. When you break down you really do break down. I fell to the ground crying because I couldn't take it. I couldn't ignore it, and I couldn't pretend everything was okay because it wasn't. 'Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.' May be the stupidest thing to say, words hurt much more than you will ever know. They surround you, and the pain never subsides.

I will never understand why society thinks blonde hair, skinny, and tanned skin beautiful, I will never understand why people like me aren't accepted, and I will never understand why people feel better about making fun of me. One thing I do know is I have amazing friends, they get me through everything and I wouldn't be here without them. I love them all so much, they will never realise how much they have changed me for the better, and kept me up when I am down. When finally I do break down they don't make fun of me, they just hug me. Help me forget everything nasty. I love them all so much, thank you all for accepting me, and loving me for being me. You are all so beautiful inside and out, you are amazing people. Thank you.

'Vitiligo has taken over my life, it is a part of me, vitiligo is my natrual beauty, I just have to accept it.' You are all beautiful people, flaws define you, they make you stronger, they make you weak but they make you YOU. If you need any help contact me. - Daisysianbutterworth@gmail.com
If you need help please tell someone, they CAN help you.

I know this isn't my normal post, but I really needed to do this.
Love Daisy

Breath me - SIA
Diana - 1D
Fix You - Coldplay

Fiver Friday February

Hey my lovelies, 

I hope you have been enjoying your first few weeks of 2014! So as explained in my previous post I will be doing a post every Friday in February of beauty products you can buy for under five pounds! This will be the first post, so I'm really excited! I am aware that it is Saturday but I was in Belgum on a school trip yesterday from four in the morning until eleven, so I'm really sorry it's slightly late! 

The first product is the 'Miss Sporty Pump Up Lash Mascara Booster' 
It is amazing! Oh my god, It is the best mascara I have ever used, much better than the Benefit's mascara which is the most raved about mascara! It adds definition and mascara, whilst lasting the whole day without smudging which I seem to have problems with most mascaras I have tried. It's so cheap and will continue to remain a staple in my makeup bag. - £2.99

The Second product is the infamous 'EOS Lipbalm in Strawberry Sorbet' 
It is the most amazing lip balm I have EVER tried, it is incredibly moisturising whilst tasting amazing. It gives a very subtle taste, and leaves your lips feeling silky soft. It also prevents lipstick feathering, which is really aggravating. It is really easy to apply and I love the packaging of it, its so cute and I take it every where! I love this! - £4.50 

The Third Product is 'Barrym Hi Shine Gel Nail Paint' 
These nail paints are AMAZING! They feel and look like gels whilst are only the fraction of the price! They last for around a week before they start to crack, which I do have a problem with and most other girls do. You don't need to bother with a clear layer, and you also don't need to apply hundreds of layers! There is a huge rang of beautiful colours! - £3.9

Fourth product is 'The Sleek Blushers' 
These blushers are so beautiful, they also double up as blushers and bronzers which are great if your on a budget! They have the biggest range of colours, and all are beautifully pigmented whilst giving you a beautiful radiant glow. - £4.50

The final product is the beauty cult product 'Collection 2000 Lasting Perfection Concealer' 
It conceals EVERYTHING! I have horrid dark circles and it completely covers them, it is by far the best concealer I have ever tried, and I have tried a lot. You do need to be slightly careful however as it can sometimes appear cake, as they have quite a small range of colors. I really would recommend this to anyone! It is widely popular and I've been trying to find a new one for about a month and everywhere I go its sold out! - £4.19

I really hope you liked this post as their is another two to go! I hope you have a wonderful valentines day, please leave a nice comment below and follow my blog, its great to now that I have some devoted readers! I am getting a lot of everyday viewers and it would be great to get to talk to some of you! 
Love Daisy x